stucked

neither here nor there..

i grew up thinking i'll be doing amazing stuffs

and achieve great successes

breaking my limit

venturing outside my comfort zone

but now i feel like I'm stuck

in a hole i don't know how to escape from

this feeling of inadequacy is suffocating i just want to scream

i feel trapped doing nothing

yet understand the potential i have

is now wasted

i feel trapped feeling like it's my responsibility to get out

but i don't know how... i really don't.

and i cant talk about it

i don't think anyone will see it the way i see it

my peers at that stage where they feel triumph over their successes

I'm trying hard to be happy for them

but it reminds me of the little things i yet to do

and I'm stuck

so i feel bad

for myself

i feel trapped having to pretend i like it

when i don't

i feel trapped fighting hard with positive thoughts

when all i want is vent and complain

even for once

i feel trapped and unhappy

and i feel like my friends are not there for me

not available for me

i just feel. stuck. and it's the worst feeling a budding eager full of potential bird can ever feel.