i wish i have a best friend at home/

it hurts

you betray my trust 

you betray me 

and that makes you selfish

because you made that choice alone

but the consequence, i have to bear it too

the pain of trying hard to not miss you

to not think of all the good times we had

and the pain of hating you

honestly, what you did

i dont think i can ever ever evr forgive

you took away what is left of my mum

and you took it away

who and what give you that right?

youre a piece of shit and i hate you for making me hate you.

i can never understand ths anger inside of me

i dont even know if its anger

or if its hatred

i loved you and i love you

and you did this to me 

how could you. 

this cant be undone 

and i hate you for that

for being selfish

and hurt me like this

i can never ever look at you the same way again

and even after this shit,

i know i will love you still.

thts how shitty you are.

i pray that Allah help me undrstand this feeling

and help me to see the hikmah of this event

i pray Allah keep you safe 

and away from me

I pray Allah protect you from the devils

and show you the light

may Allah show you the light

but just stay away from me

for now.

and forever.