it cant be for more than 20 years - 

there's a fire of anger inside of her

small, but blazing ball of flame

it had been there for less than 20 years

for how many - not one knows

even herself cannot make out the significance 

of the energy in her life

everytime she sees them,

the anger will arise

sometimes it turns to pity

and understanding

but when it's the turn of irritation

it's so hard to control and reason with herself

she create conversations

and lamentations

to fire 

any day

one day

hopefully -

but the strength to do so

is beyond her capabilities

she often keep it quiet and

deal with it to sleep

she composed a note

not a letter

never a letter

for she knows, it is hrd to get trough

hence why the trouble

a note of what not to do once she becomes them

a note to remind her of who she -doesnt- want to grow up as

a note so she will not forget the hatred and anger...she feels

not for revenge, but for lessons

in order for her to become better person in days to come

in order for her to not become like ...them.