afraid of wht people say abt me.
afraid of what they think of me.
afraid that they'll judge me ...
i never thought i was that kind of a girl..
but i began to realise how i am too cautious in living ..
but i don't want to do things that is not me.
i don't want to fake my friendliness justso that ppl like me
if they don't like me being shy and non talkative...then they just don't like me.
rather than i fake being interested in them..and make small talks and send emojis and uses love all over the whatsapp chat...
thats not me
and it's tiring to fake it.
ive tried it.
once when i hated myself.
but when i am being myself,
nobody likes me.
nobody love me
nobody find me attractive.
and ppl describe me being a confident girl.
when deep inside.....
..there are times i don't believe in myself
there are times i hate myself
there are times i think i am never enough for anyone
thts why i am alone ..
and when i express my insecurities,
they roll their eyes at me
they must've been thinking that i am hust seeking for attention
when in reality, i was seeking for love :-(
is that too much to ask?